The blog post today is going to be pretty short. I want to start out by giving you an update on how things are going for me with the excoriation disorder. Every now and then I have these really good days, sometimes even weeks, where I don’t have such a strong urge to pick at my skin. This usually only happens with my feet. I actually don’t remember a time I HAVEN’T picked at my fingers constantly. Anyway, my toes have actually been healing really nicely and I haven’t picked at them as much lately. Part of me is really excited and happy about it! The other part of me knows it’s short-lived because that’s how it’s always been in the past for me. I can’t really explain why I have these days and weeks where it randomly gets better. Maybe it’s during times I’m busier and distracted? Maybe it’s during times of less stress? Maybe I’m just taking it all out on my fingers? I’ve never taken the time to really observe the situation to figure it out. Either way, I am going to celebrate this small win for me. I want to enjoy this while it lasts and possibly attempt to figure out why the skin picking has “randomly” stopped being so bad for my feet lately. For those of you that keep up with my posts you may remember I posted several pictures of my toes and feet while they were torn up really bad. I want to take the time to show you the pictures of how my feet look today compared to those older pictures.
As you can see they’re not fully healed and I honestly can’t say if they will make it there. All I want is to let them heal and never pick at them again. I wish it was as simple as just stopping. Just thinking “No more” and BAM no more picking. It doesn’t work that way though. But enough about me!
I had one really amazing person share their story with me who also wanted to share with you! Thank you to everyone who takes the time to read!
“During my first year of middle school, multiple things in my life got so bad that I actually thought about suicide and made a Pros and Cons list of my death. Fortunately, the Cons outweighed the Pros and I am still here today. Things have gotten better but it seems like things keep happening. People in my family keep dying and I have to just watch as the people I love wither away. I’ve learned to deal with this though. I make the most of the time I have with people and I do my best to make sure that my friends feel welcome and strangers are treated nicely. Occasionally I get to a low point again but the friends I talk to help me get back out of that and I am very thankful for them.”